November 30

Today in so many years, I always put up the christmas tree and christmas decors in our house. Since mom died I haven't put anything up again, for 15 years now. 

Kamusta

 Saw you in my dream and I wonder how you are. You messaged me monday, Nov 22, pero since 4am yun sa akin tulog pa ako. Nagreply ako, seen, pero hindi ka na nagreply, up to this date. Nag-aalala ako baka nabasa nya message ko at nagkaroon nanaman kayo ng diskusyon. Sana hindi. 

Papa, My First Dream

 Nasa bahay ako e. Parang kakauwi ko lng.  Tapos naglilinis ako. Nilalagay ko mga kalat sa black garbage bag  tapos dumating  ate ko, sabi nya happy birthday! Tapos naghug kami. Then sabi ko aakyat ako tingnan ko si papa. Pag pasok ko sa room nya madilim, at magulo, parang sa hoarder na show. He's in bad shape na, pero nakatayo sya sabi nya bababa sya at magsasaing. Yun lng nagising na ako.😞

Hi Ma,

Dreamt of you last night. It was a long time ago since you visited me.  You were at our house and I left to get something from the store.  It took me a long time coz the store doesn't have what I want. I went home. I saw a lady in the garage probably having her cigarette and told me not to close the front door. I went up and saw our old black and white TV in the living room. The lady must be watching.  I went to your room and lay beside you. We were hugging and conveying how we miss each other so much. I went to use the bathroom and the dream's gone.

Are you ok?

I dreamt about you. I was surprised because it was explicit. Knowing that you have a long time partner, you came over to me and we just kissed. Not like you to cheat.

I just hope you're doing ok.

It's All Coming Back To Me..

It was 20 years ago when we first met and thought "it might be you" to each other. But not so cause we parted ways after 10 years.  I wasn't okay. I am not okay. I thought I was, 10 years after I'm still struggling from your absence like it all happen just yesterday. I miss you terribly and I can't say that to you anymore. I'm full of tears writing you this when you can't even read it.

Room For Squares

Downloading John Mayer's album Room for Squares after ten years of eluding to hear his songs because of not so good memories. I think I'm ok now. ;)

Dream Catcher

You never wanted me in the bus but I insist and jump in the bus with you. You tried your best to elude me and sat in  the back of the bus. I glanced every once in a while until I realize you were gone. I embarked immediately look for you but can't find you anywhere.

You probably want to tell me to stay and be strong for everything I am going through and that you are still always with me.

I love you Ma, and thank you for consistently letting me know that you are there watching over me.

St Benedictine, Lisle

Thank you Lord Jesus! For yhe 3-day job!.
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Dream Catcher

Details of my dream:

-Riding a bicycle
-following mom who is in a cab
-george got off the cab somewhere west ave
-continue biking. near mcdo and red ribbon near Icon.
-knocked on the cab driver's window and instruct to make a u-turn
-saw mom got off the cab and walk.
-the cab driver ran over her. I went to her immediately.
-driver said mom broke something that is precious to him.
  Ask how much is it and he tried to extort P10M from us.
  No reason to stay and argue. I pulled my mom and left.
-I was riding the bike again with water on my feet.
-mom's is on a wheelchair now. Pulling Georges' bike.